Sunday 19 July 2009

Giving, Making and Creating.

Yesterday I tried my hand at making some money at a nearly new clothes sale over in Binfield. What a waste of time that was! It was fun doing it with my friend, but really hardly anyone turned up. So glad I did not pay to do that.
Today had GX Church picnic, nice to see old faces and meet the new minister. Long haired with guitar rather hippy like but cheerful enough. He looks quite radical, but sounds like what the church needs.
In the week I gave a bit of stuff away on Freecycle, I felt so good doing it seeing the joy on the peoples faces. That was satisfying.
I experienced Parchment in the craft class which was quite challenging as sitting down for 2 hours and concentrating on something rarely happens. Also drawing is something I have not done since school. After 2 hours it is still work in progress!!!!!!
Friday there was a fancy dress party (Noahs Ark theme) at the playgroup, so I decided to take V out of nursery and send her and S to it with "I" as it was his day off and I thought it would be great bonding time. I made my children into bees. V wore an old outfit of mine, a black and yellow chiffon skirt with ruffles, and halter neck top. I managed to borrow a roll of hazard tape from the local charity shop and cut out black bits to stick onto the skirt to create the bees stripes. S wore black trousers, and the yellow bits formed stripes on that, and the black membrane from the garden was his top and I transformed that also.
I really enjoy projects like this.
Whilst the kids were busy with Daddy I was at an ASD meeting learning how to make a visual timetable, so created one of those also. It was definitely worth my while going.
I tried my hand at making some money through advertising the pushchair and highchair but no joy as yet. My friend and I have decided to do a couple of car boots this year to try and get rid of these things. I guess people don't have a great deal of money at the mo so getting shot of stuff quickly is hard unless you give it all away.
I am enjoying my creativity this week, but am conscious that I want to start making money seeing as last week I made a small amount.

Thursday 9 July 2009

An unusually busy day

Had a 5 hour meeting at the council offices today in relation to the parent participation project I am working on. We discussed the groups finances and how we will spend the 10k in the next 9 months. I also learnt about SPICE on ice for children with special needs, and no doubt will be taking V there when she turns 4. Hopefully they will have someone to help her as I cannot ice skate. I can't bear it. Great thing for her to do. Heard that my local rink are looking for a team of special needs children to go to Canada next year for a tournament. Apparently there is only one other such group in London that does skating for special needs, so we are quite lucky having this facility right on our doorstep.
Then I went to a market research evening for feminax tablets, it was quite fun and a good way to make money for your opinions. I earnt £35.00 that is the first bit of money I have "earnt" since 2006. Very odd! Interesting group of people, 2 single mums, 1 newly unemployed girl, 1 part-time worker, and 1 hr person from honda. 6 including me. Hopefully I can do more of these as and when they come through. I really enjoyed pulling these ads to pieces, did not realise how much my media degree made me so critical of ideas and concepts! Perhaps I should have gone into advertising, I have always been more of an ideas person and that is why I enjoyed the drama side of the degree more. After doing that degree for 3 years, I never really enjoyed watching films again. I rarely go the cinema these days, as nothing seems of real interest to me. I have seen 1 film this year on the tv, "An Unfinished Life", which despite having Jennifer Lopez in it, was a good film, well written, and well directed. I never seem to want to watch a film, or I catch it half way through, and then there is no point.
Then I went over to a craft evening (average age 65) where I made 4 envelopes and used the scraps of paper to make cards to go with them. Such escapism from my day to day life, and nice to hear them all moaning about their grandchildren!
Children were at nursery from 9-3 and S did not have a nap, when he got home he was so grisly. "I" had the pleasure of looking after his children for the evening. When I got in at 10pm S was crying, "I" fast asleep so did not hear him, S had a wet bum.
Just changed to size 5 huggies seem massive to me the 4+ were making marks around S's legs. He does have very chunky legs, I do love squeezing them!
V made me laugh this evening, "Oh mummys doing her lips, thats nice" she rarely sees me putting on make-up in front of her!
Tomorrow being ripped off again for a retest MOT. £48 last Friday for an MOT that failed, then £80 on Wednesday for 1 shock absorber, and so tomorrows retest will be £28. So the money I earnt is already accounted for. Such a shame, wanted to put it towards the camping trip.
Never mind.
Trying to get rid of some stuff on freecycle but the person did not turn up, not a good start.

Tuesday 7 July 2009

July already

I cannot believe it is July already, I feel bad that I have not blogged since June. So much has happened. We have lost a cousin who was 39 and passed away in her sleep. I told "I" how much I liked her, and he said that she really liked me. I felt sad that I did not get to know her well enough, but I had only seen her a few times in Anguilla, and at brother in laws wedding in Trinidad. Mother in law described how her best friend was standing over her, shaking her saying "wake up T"because she looked like she was peacefully sleeping. Death is so hard for all concerned. I worry for "I" as he takes each death in the family so badly. Life is so precious.
When MJ died I felt sad and watching his memorial 12 days on showed how much he was loved. How do we cope when they are gone, their memory lingers on and you can feel their presence around you. I often feel my maternal grandmother near me. I have felt and smelt her presence when driving once, I felt loved and reassured she was near me. I strongly believe in the afterlife, my faith competes sometimes with the psychic forces I feel inside me. A medium once told me that I had healing hands (and that gift had been passed on from my mothers side going back to GGrandma), but I have chosen not to follow this road.

The road I am on is sometimes a rocky one, but held firmly in my grasp is the Lord. I don't say it much, and don't often make it to Church but he is always there for me.

V's hole in her head has closed some more since the neurosurgeon said it was closing. If that is not a miracle then I don't know what is! We have been told she has GDD (Global Development Delay) and Disordered Language Development. It has come as a shock for us, as things seemed to be going so well, but I guess these things are on paper only. In reality V is V and not what her diagnosis is, sure the diagnosis can go some way to explaining her "differences" but it is an opinion only based on medical examinations, once a year or twice yearly are not nearly enough to understand the truth about her and how she operates. We are also having a referral to clinical psychologist, occupational therapy, autism assessment unit, and social services. I have received no respite for her, and feel it is time that some was given. I hope I am not opening up a can of worms with all this. Getting everyone involved can only help her in the long term. I still have hope for the future for her.